25Oct stabbing!

there's a continuous sharp striking pain at the side of my head.

or is it at my ear?

i cant differentiate

it just keep repeating itself for a few hours

then stop for awhile

and repeats again.


the stabs gives me momentary dizziness..

its pulling at something inside my head.

i hope it stops.

soon.


i just refused to see the doctor.



llwei~

21Oct2008

i feel the energy being drain

out of me.

empty. hollow. sad.


whats happening?

i need the sun back.

i need the colors back.

i need the laughter back.


the time has not come.

no.no.no.



llwei~

20Oct2008

sometimes i love you so

sometimes i just hope you're not around.

i cant live without you,

yet i want to run as far as i can from you.


its an irony.

thats life.


its strange

how tears come when u feel fragile.

and weak.

and you just hope to

fall seriously seriously sick.

thinking that maybe,

maybe,

that will make everything right.

20Oct2008

keep staring.

oblivious to everything else.

i've fallen,

into a deep deep deep deep trench.

i stare out of it.

there's nobody.

i think

i just want to stay in there.

and

breathe.

breathe.

breathe.


o no.

they're coming back.

reaching into my throat,

i feel it

i feel it

i feel it.

come on out if you want.

its horribly uncomfortable




llwei~

15Oct stupid

dun lie

efforts do not translate to results.


its wrong to deceive yourself

if u are stupid, then admit it.


no use being breathless

no use puking out your food

no use shutting your eyes to sleep


you are still stupid.


teach me how to breathe when suffocating...

the feeling just wont go away

do u know?

10Oct2008 hi&byee

i wonder and wonder.

where have you been.

i knew u were comin.

i know u shld be here now.

but why cant i feel u at all.


sleeping in late is a sin.

watching tv feels me with guilt.

oh my.


i can see you leaving me...

come back pleaseeee...

embrace me.
and keep me from the dangers lurking right outside.

let me hide inside you,
in the place without fear or frustration.



llwei~

02Oct pre exam happiness..

i'm feeling happie happie happie~

even though i have an exam tmrz mornin.

haha.

aha.

heee...



llwei~

01Oct

When I Need You

When I need you
I just close my eyes and I’m with you
And all that I so wanna give you
It’s only a heartbeat away
When I need love
I hold out my hands out
And I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night & day

Miles & miles of empty space in between us
A telephone can’t take the place of your smile
But you know I won’t be travellin’ forever
It’s cold out
But hold out
And do like I do
When I need you
I just close my eyes and I’m with you
And all that I so wanna give you babe
It’s only a heartbeat away

It’s not easy when the road is your driver
Honey that’s a heavy load that we bear
But you know I won’t be travellin’ a lifetime
It’s cold out
But hold out
And do like I do…
Oh I need you….

When I need love
I hold out my hands out
And I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night & day

When I need you
I just close my eyes and you’re right here by my side
Keepin’ me warm night & day
I just hold out my hands
I just hold out my hands
And I’m with you darlin’
Yes I’m with you darlin’
All I wanna give you
It’s only a heartbeat away
Oh I need you darlin