27jan2008 Its a S.T.U.P.I.G

its a S,
with a T
then an U
and a P I D.

it spells stupid.

it took her 3attempts before i realised.
not stupid then wat.
but i still continue doing.
even more stupid.
right?


i was PMS-ing in the afternoon.
so many things made me feel stupid.

i dun like to do hopeful cross fingers stuff.
i like to pout and sulk.
by myself. to myself. for myself.

but tt body doesnt know.




llwei~

26jan2008

i'm tired.

went for a run in the morning. though i really hate running, i must say that running gives you a sense of living because you pant till you feel like you're goin to drop dead the next moment. its refreshing thereafter too...feel more energised to play the games.

havnt played for like 1month+ goin on 2 i think. getting rusty..not that i was very good a player anyways haha so i guessed its ok ya. hoohoo.
heard that my and jason are having a competition at 1pm. the kaypoh me decide to head down to support them.

Its held at Tanglin club, called the Jumbo Doubles Tournament. Tanglin club is the only place in sg with jumbo double courts. cool.
The court was indeed more huge then normal, but having 4 person inside seems to be abit crowded. nevertheless, from the players point of view, they claim to feel like an ant inside the court. yeah right.

it was indeed an eyeopener and definitely not a wasted trip down even though the team lost their second game of the day. the players were really experienced and all their shots were awesome. their strokes were all perfect, and not to their mention their drops and placing of the balls to where they intent it to. the navigation of the ball at ease is ..wah. haha i practically cant take my eyes off them and could only say. wAH. damn pro.
experience is definitely something that comes with age. but being a good player doesnt go the same way. With the right attitude and the appropriate gift, one can be a proud winner all the same. Since it was opens, there was a huge discrepancy in age. I see some old granpas takin on sweet young things in their teen. How unfair i thought. but well, to think again, life's never fair.

victory does not come naturally with the skills u have, but all with the right stroke of luck and timing combination.

so who says networking is not important. being effective and efficient is not enough! heehee.

humans are damn hard to please.
they like to take on challenges and live life the hard way.
make themselves worry, unhappy and angry.
only then will they feel the happiness.
why do we always want what we cant get easily?
how stupid.

breathe.
tell me. remind me. make me.



llwei~

25jan2008

block.
blocking.
blocked.

let in some air please.
i need to breathe.


and
get the stuff out of my mind.
it stops me from breathing.


i forget to breathe so many times today.
even now.


there's something wrong with my reflex.ha.

i dun want to do anything.
i just want to lie there
and know that i'm breathing.



llwei~

23jan2008 donkey's 21st.

celebrated donkey's 21st bdae.
went to Aston for dinner. it was cheap but good.
we're getting old.
stepping into the young adults phase. well well.
its quite scary how fast we're moving forward.
without much awareness and preparation.

i hope all of us stay happie, healthy and blessed.
in whatever.

8years and all of us have grown. esp the guys.
in and out of love.in and out of jokes. in and out of each other's minds.
in and out of school.in and out of work.
still we manage to come together every year, to celebrate our friendship.
i cherish, i safekeep.
hoping that the dear feeling will remain within each of us,
even as we step into the next stage of life, of which different destiny awaits.





llwei~

22jan2008

i'm so angry with myself.

muddle head.
why am i always losing track of my things and thoughts.

its so scary to be made to worry.
the moment of realisation for them is even worse.
what were they thinking then.
slow motion?
time freezes, there's not continuation. just snapshots.
the fear within intensifies till it threaten to burst.
did you forget to convey ur love to anyone?
glad that we were first on your mind.


somehow, i feel guilty.
the searing pain.
the discomfort.
the temporal handicap.
i know he feels guilty.
tt explains the insistence to be by her side.
the tendering care.
the simple holding of hands that provides much reassurance.
or maybe thats true love.

pray for things to get better real soon.
hope she's the right girl.

i hope there wont be a next time.

as usual,
you're always the first.
but, what i want to say,
as usual,
never get said.

ask me.
there's never a 'no.' for answer.
only for you.
but not for me.


life's unfair.
i knows.


when i say no.
i'm angry.
at myself.
angry that i come from lala land,
the land of fantasy and fairy tales.
i'm a foreigner, i cant speak your language.


everything's still the same.
oh. i see.




the sister/the friend.~

21jan2008

oh well.
好多时候。
好多地方。
好多事件。
笑吧。
好说了。
想算吧。

没用。
就要扔。


读不懂，没关系。
没心懂，我不哭。


笑一个！=）
我是一个想要把梦实现，而努力成为策划者的梦想家。
someday, i will become the better person.



llwei.

19jan2008 jaychou

went for jay chou concert yesterday. it was quite a disappoinment actually for the show ended damn fast. before i knew it, crazy fans were already screaming for encore and he has come out twice for some of the songs from his older albums. most of the songs sang during the concert are from his new album, and they are all fast rappy songs. I DUN LIKE. bleah. this concert actually gave me a 'impromtu', 'haphazard' kinda feelings as i feel that the content is not really well organised and planned. anws, i think, JAY CHOU is so humble and amiable now. its so different from the cool, indifference impressions he gives previously. his sense of humor is also getting better and so is his emcee technics...can this improvement be attributed to yesterday being his bdae?! haha.


our seats were actually not bad, facing the stage directly. however, my 7mp camera is not very pro and so i could only take photos with puny figures inside. just to mention, there was some creatures worth mentioning seated near us. in our row, there's this gal who brought her teddy to the concert! teddy was so happy to be at the concert that he requested for her to take lotsa photos of him with the stage as background. teddy also got cold during the concert and so missy hugged him tight while taking caution not to squeeze him too hard. i saw her smelling him a few times too. did teddy poo?

the gal behind us, she's an absolute jay chou fan. could sing all the songs without missing any words and such includes the raps. how cool is that.but she wasnt at all high. was glued to the seat. had she stood up to scream n jump, i would have the chance to get high too! bleah.


interesting show. i made many observations.

top in line:
jay chou is super talented.


haha
there are some things i dun understand.
hoping that u can clear my doubts.
can u do it fast??
its not nice to be a confused person.
i dun like it.
haha


one of my fav song of the night is 《彩虹》

all this while, i'd not understood wat the mv meant. now i know...
(view this link. "http://x.discuz.net/421293/viewspace-97771" if interested.)


时间是一种解药，但是时间也却往往是让人陷入陷阱的毒药。

so is time the remedy? or the fatal cause?

sometimes, people do things just because they think its right.
but think again.
who are you to decide whether its right or wrong?

its wrong to make decisions for others.
its wrong to deprive another of the chance to choose.
its wrong to make another suffer for the poor decision u've made.


so please remember that no one is an independent entity from another.
thats nonsense.
you do not do things on your own.
u cannot. so u should not.
share the burden and the happiness.
watever it is.
it will make u a better person.





llwei~

16jan2008 不。

越来越
看不懂。
读不懂。
摸不透。

不愧是大学的程度。

随便啦。
开心就好。
一直都是这样。


llwei~

14012008 rest.relax.

think too much
say too much
ask for too much
will get tired de.

haha.
so izzit dun think, dun say, dun ask better??
i think so!

So,
no more expectations!
i shall be happie like before!


cos i believe that best things gained are always unexpected.

rest and relax. =)
breatheeee.....


i say
congratulations!
focus!
smile!
yeah!



llwei~

14jan2008 drop lae.

i'm bored.

others, by all means, anytime, i analyse.
myself, not objective.
emotions.
fear.
desires.
blinds and chokes.

there's no why dude.
just like that lor.

somethings are hard to express.
somethings are hard to explain.
but that doesnt mean that there's nothing.

feel like grabbing then shake.
hard HaRd HARD.
very hard.
as hard as i can.
hoping for things to drop out.


i hope i can keep to what i've previously decide.
so hard. i think i'll fail to follow. 95% sure.
argh.useless!




llwei~

13jan2008 wrong wrong wrong.

i hate to quarrel with anyone.
i hate to have a cold war with anyone.

i hate it when i have to say fine.
i hate it when i have to leave feelings sore.

sometimes people say the wrong things at the wrong time.
did i?

wrong words. wrong time. wrong place. wrong reaction.
right feelings.

sometimes people say things that are hard to explain.
i'm not the only one.
i say what i see. i feel. i read.
i say what others see. others feel. others read.
or maybe its just me.
so maybe u're right.
maybe there's no need to care.
its just me.


sorry.
sweet dreams.
happie day.



llwei~

11Jan2008

how do we form perception of people?

i guess it depends on different individuals.
we have different values and ideas that allow us to form our own judgment upon people and the right or wrong.
but what i'm sure of is that perception on a person starts on day 1.
after which every word or thing he does,no matter how insignificant, will be taken into account in contributing to the formulation of the person's character, personality to another.
that is why i find observation very important a task.
observe to realise the minute details.
observe to see what others missed in the crowd.


a fren asked me earlier if i think he is a good person.
i smiled but was actually at a loss of words.

very often, we only believe in what we witness for ourselves, and thus the conclusion drawn by ourselves. at least this is what i believe in.

i cant say that i am kind honesty and smart, hoping that you will believe in me and for that image of me to be formed in the eyes and heart of another.
i believe that i have to build upon my actions and sincerity in my everyday life to formulate the image.
only then am i trustworthy and truthful.
and
if you do not believe me, then i'll work harder to make you believe in what i believe in and who i am.

these is what i expect of myself and thus that of others, who cares about how i look at them.

actions definitely speak louder then words.


i did not gave him an answer eventually.
i guess its because its cos i know his weaknesses too well.
he's not a bad person.
just a person with faults.


i think she's pretty. you think not.
i think there's something. you think there's none.
i think i can do it. you think you cant.


how different are we?

do you know?



llwei~

10jan2008 BEAUTY WORLD CHA CHA CHA

i had a great great dream yesterday.

cos i had a great great night.
with good company and of cos
a good production for me to savour even when i reached home!

Presenting to u...BEAUTY WORLD CHA CHA CHA!




not the whole of the cast, but these are the main leads and supporting roles.
i wonder where is my fav frankie.
he's really hilarious with his theme song of the night that screams ooOOoohhh...IIivvyyy...i love you.... placing so much emphasis and care to have the 'hiccups' effect or intermittent pause between every syllabus so that it sounds like 'o o o O O I I Ivy, i love you...'. such is make more entertaining by the group of 'chorus angels' in pink.



irene ang aka wan choo is my next fav cast. her Cantonese lines really spice up the scenes making everyone laugh even if many understand the meaning only after look at the subtitles...shows how natural and talented an actress she is.
well in the show, she practically knows everything but dunnoe any thing.



lulu , one of the character of which the twist of the story lies. a very strong character of which tells of the reality of how tough and unexpected life is; in making a living, how one needs to succumb to circumstances, the lurking of malice and its danger to purity ...
however, she is a awesome representative of many, who is made a victim of circumstances and how one had to hide true emotions as deep dark secrets. they wear a facade mask instead.
anw her name is very catchy.. pronounced as 'loo loo' hahaha.


musicals are really nice to watch. the vocals of the cast left us in awe as they're powerful while being able to deliver emotions. should save up to watch such cultural productions more often. haha.



llwei

08jan2008 i shld.

i need to

1. focus
2. have discipline
3. concentrate on e right stuff

i shld stop dreaming.
i shld mug.
and only mug.



lesson of the day that i find interesting:
Do not marry someone thinking that you can change him/her.

i admit its hard to change someone
no one is comfortable with changes
so do not expect that you can easily change someone.
keep that in mind.


i lift my right hand for the time even when the watch is on my left.
i carry my bag on my left shoulder only.
i have to wear my hairband on my right wrist.
i like to leave the best dishes last to savour.
i like to have soup the last.
i like to drink water before sleeping.
i like to..
i ...

i would hate to change my habits, my lifestyle, my personality.
so how can i expect others to change?

i'm sorry that i tried.

ha
ha
ha


wakie time.
i shld be sleeping early fm now on.




llwei~

范玮琪-- 到不了

你眼睛会笑弯成一条桥
终点却是我永远到不了
感觉你来到是风的呼啸
思念像苦药竟如此难熬
每分每秒
我找不到我到不了
你所谓的将来的美好
我什麽都不要知不知道
若你懂我这一秒
我想看到我在寻找
那所谓的爱情的美好
我紧紧的依靠紧谨守牢
不敢漏掉一丝一毫
愿你看到

7jan2008 ignore me.

1st day of sch. and i'm feeling tired.
feeling sick.
aching.
sore.

so many readings to be done still.


please bless 2008.



yes.no?
i need reasons.
i need explanations.
got. no got.
why. no why?

ignore me.

yes.no?

yes.
try understanding.

i wanna watch
Michael Clayton-- The Truth can be Adjusted



liwei~

03012008

first post of the year.
past is history.
new is future.

新年新希望。
新的期望。
新的期待。
新的期盼。

在新年前夕，看到的一段短短的文字。
它说:

每一天都是生命中的一张白纸，
每一个人，每一件事，
都是一篇生动的文章。

没错。人生就是被生活点滴塑造出来的。
每一个决定，每一个抉择，
都会因某一个人或某一件事，而被影响。
不同的思考程序，不同的生活观念，
都会指引你走向不同的方向。


有些事，过了现在想回味，也没有感觉了。

在2008来临的前几分钟，我在酒店写下了我对2007年的感动。
写的时候很兴奋，想要回新后，就第一时间的把它打进电脑。
现在想，所写的，似乎已没意义了。

我想，时机很重要吧。
做什么事都一样。
那重要的时机过了，感觉就不在了。
当时再快乐的心情，也抵不过此刻的心情。
当时想说的话，不想说了。
当时想做的事，不能时光倒流的再去做。


对2007，我只能说谢谢。
这一年，让我更了解自己。
自己在想什么，
自己想要什么，
自己应该做什么。

这一年，让我更了解自己以外的人。
人的难测之心。
人的口是心非。
人的懦弱。
人的自私。
认识一个人，并不代表你认识他的心。
认识他的心，并不代表你认识他的脑袋。
真正的认识一个人，是需要多少多少的时间呀。
有很多时侯，
你以为是对的事，其实是错的。
所以，不要把自己的思想灌在别人身上。


对2008，我不敢有梦。
梦越多，现实就显得越残酷。

我反省。
我思考。
我勇敢的面对现实。
我可以做的，
我只能改变我自己。

我做的事，都是为了不要有后悔的可能。

我不做的事，也都是为了不要有后悔的可能。

我的坚持，是因为我知道，
对任何事情的后悔，将会成为以后的遗憾。

往前走，应该会看到更迷人的景色吧。


llwei~


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