29nov2008 突然好想你

作詞：阿信 作曲：阿信


最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著不平息 最怕突然 聽到你的消息
想念如果會有聲音 不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今 終於讓自己屬於我自己 只剩眼淚 還騙不過自己

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

我們像一首最美麗的歌曲 變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麼你 帶我走過最難忘的旅行 然後留下 最痛的紀念品

我們 那麼甜那麼美那麼相信 那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經
為何我們還是要奔向各自的幸福和遺憾中老去

突然好想你 你會在哪裡 過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你 突然鋒利的回憶 突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空氣突然安靜 最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶 突然翻滾絞痛著不平息 最怕突然 聽到你的消息

最怕此生 已經決心自己過沒有你 卻又突然 聽到你的消息

26nov2008 coming...

feeling feverish

scorching heat

freezing body.

but

i'm a big big gal

i cover myself well


no tears

control them

cos big gal dun cry.


i'll embrace the pain

and sleep my night through.



do not worry!

do not get tired!

cos i'm a big big gal...



llwei~

19nov2008 pain.

pain

pain

pain

pain


hope u can be ard everyday
to make it go away....

25Oct stabbing!

there's a continuous sharp striking pain at the side of my head.

or is it at my ear?

i cant differentiate

it just keep repeating itself for a few hours

then stop for awhile

and repeats again.


the stabs gives me momentary dizziness..

its pulling at something inside my head.

i hope it stops.

soon.


i just refused to see the doctor.



llwei~

21Oct2008

i feel the energy being drain

out of me.

empty. hollow. sad.


whats happening?

i need the sun back.

i need the colors back.

i need the laughter back.


the time has not come.

no.no.no.



llwei~

20Oct2008

sometimes i love you so

sometimes i just hope you're not around.

i cant live without you,

yet i want to run as far as i can from you.


its an irony.

thats life.


its strange

how tears come when u feel fragile.

and weak.

and you just hope to

fall seriously seriously sick.

thinking that maybe,

maybe,

that will make everything right.

20Oct2008

keep staring.

oblivious to everything else.

i've fallen,

into a deep deep deep deep trench.

i stare out of it.

there's nobody.

i think

i just want to stay in there.

and

breathe.

breathe.

breathe.


o no.

they're coming back.

reaching into my throat,

i feel it

i feel it

i feel it.

come on out if you want.

its horribly uncomfortable




llwei~

15Oct stupid

dun lie

efforts do not translate to results.


its wrong to deceive yourself

if u are stupid, then admit it.


no use being breathless

no use puking out your food

no use shutting your eyes to sleep


you are still stupid.


teach me how to breathe when suffocating...

the feeling just wont go away

do u know?

10Oct2008 hi&byee

i wonder and wonder.

where have you been.

i knew u were comin.

i know u shld be here now.

but why cant i feel u at all.


sleeping in late is a sin.

watching tv feels me with guilt.

oh my.


i can see you leaving me...

come back pleaseeee...

embrace me.
and keep me from the dangers lurking right outside.

let me hide inside you,
in the place without fear or frustration.



llwei~

02Oct pre exam happiness..

i'm feeling happie happie happie~

even though i have an exam tmrz mornin.

haha.

aha.

heee...



llwei~

01Oct

When I Need You

When I need you
I just close my eyes and I’m with you
And all that I so wanna give you
It’s only a heartbeat away
When I need love
I hold out my hands out
And I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night & day

Miles & miles of empty space in between us
A telephone can’t take the place of your smile
But you know I won’t be travellin’ forever
It’s cold out
But hold out
And do like I do
When I need you
I just close my eyes and I’m with you
And all that I so wanna give you babe
It’s only a heartbeat away

It’s not easy when the road is your driver
Honey that’s a heavy load that we bear
But you know I won’t be travellin’ a lifetime
It’s cold out
But hold out
And do like I do…
Oh I need you….

When I need love
I hold out my hands out
And I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night & day

When I need you
I just close my eyes and you’re right here by my side
Keepin’ me warm night & day
I just hold out my hands
I just hold out my hands
And I’m with you darlin’
Yes I’m with you darlin’
All I wanna give you
It’s only a heartbeat away
Oh I need you darlin

down.

feeling so down.
down down down.

so tired.

flushed.

i cant think with this splitting headache.


you just cant spare me any time.


llwei~

28Sept08 I dreamt

I had a dream last night.

So real.

I can feel it.

I touched it,

I could feel it move.

 

I was so happie,

Even though there wasn't any logic within.

 

When its gone,

I cried.

It was real tears I realized.

 

Then came real anger.

Reminded me of forgotten past

How irritating.

when dreams like to make random stuff happen...

 

llwei~

25Sept 08 Love yourself

I’ve realized….
The importance and the need to love yourself…
Love yourself, more than any other people.
Only then, will you be happie with the amount of love u’ve received.
Only then will you feel that your expectations are being met.

Never have I thought like this before.
I should be loving everyone ard me. Everyone.
To be able to shower another with love and care; I thought it was a bliss thing to do.

But I’ve realized,
To give doesn’t mean that you can ask to receive.
How much should I give,
how long should I wait to receive?
It’s a terrible experience to have to deal with disappointments.
Disappointments that you know is inevitable,
Disappointments that you know you have to bear.
Disappointments that you wish to drive away.

It hurts,
When someone you care doesn’t let you linger in his/her thoughts.
It truly shows that someone care,
If you exist in the conscious and subconscious mind.
Breakfast, lunch and dinner.
Morning, afternoon, night.

Where’s my coffee?
I'll buy it for myself~


i'm not being petty~ muackx


llwei~

18sept2008 everyday i love u~

i dunnoe but i believe
that some things are meant to be
and that you make a better me
everyday i love you

i never thought that dreams came true
but you shown me that they do
and i know that i learn something new,
everyday i love you

cos i believe that destiny
is out of our control
and you never live
until you love with your heart and soul....

this song.
same song
lets my emotions out.

i put in my heart and soul.
i put in my tears and smiles.
i hope it yield something new.
different.
different from.

hoping is not realistic.
why not try to make sure it happens?

the many do nots
i'm trying
not to step on them.

this was my hard work.
not done in a few mins but hours.

just a few words.
but it means alot.


just to hear you
its makes my day....



llwei~

4sept2008 learn gal.

Get a hang on yourself.

You have to learn to let some things go.

Don't end up gasping for breathe. Like just now.

I will.

I can.

Aiya.

 

llwei~

每天張開眼睛第一件事就是想你
空氣有草莓的香氣
每天幻想柳橙色的為倆蓋在草地
讓我們發明最美的約定

COOL!

Its so miraculous! I can blog here using MS words 07. How cool is that?!!!

 

~llwei

25aug2008 2nd weeks

its only the 2nd week of school....

yet i'm already feeling the dread and fear to go to class.

i must be brave~




jiayous,
liwei

14aug healthy&happie

looking back...

hmmm.... past entries has been quite EMO-MOMO...

back to the happie liwei that everyone knows..........

my happie moments.....

with frens...

family..

and of cos you!


beach day out...

gals day out with besties...ernnie & laura...

10august08 jiayous~

many things, i know.

i know, yet sometimes, i cant behave as i know i should.

i regret many times. many many times, for the way i did at those moments.

i ask for forgiveness, i explain myself.

just that i love fairytales.
yet i know it cant be a fairytale.

its disappointing.
yet thats the real world. i knows.


i'm not a real princess,
just the one inside you.

tell me. talk to me more.

dont let me be the last to know.



we'd started off on different grounds.

am everything in my life.

i'm trying.

to bring back normality into our life.

to bring back balance.

will try. very hard.

give me more jiayous

i know i can do it.


but,

never, do not

doubt, question.

it scares me.

i meant everyword said yesterday.

i'm trying.


the fear of losing....
dont let it come.....


still happie and healthy



loves
llwei~

31Jul2008 the cats.

i'm happie yet i'm sad.

i'm busy yet i'm bored.

i'm sensible yet i'm childish.

ultimately, alone.

you aren't there to chase the cats away.


so many of them.

scare the wits out of me.



alone. walking.
with a painful eye.




llwei~

16July2008 wide awake

wide awake suddenly.


puffy eyes. a little sore. stomach hurts.


the commotion just now jolt me to my senses.
i love everyone so much
i feel all that they felt.

tears just come so easily.
and i feel all alone.
weak. helpless.


i wonder if u ever come visit.
like u did to other frens.
i wonder.


the future. what lies ahead.
i promise i'll love her as much as she'd love me.
maybe more.


hold on to me tight.
i may not be as strong, but i will try.
so long, our lives has intertwined
so far, we've walk the path together
so sure, i will hold your hand

forever i hope. i truly hope.
dun leave.
i silently pray.
my strength, my soul, my life
be gone without you.



the root of all evil.
think before you speak.

Oh shut up.


nobody understands.


llwei~

fear.

there's so much fear in me now.

lost.
lost.
lost.

why does tears just keep coming.

i'm just staring at my computer.
i dunnoe wat to do.
Just fear.
Just worries.


i cant breathe.



llwei~

who?

many a times i wonder....

what will happen if i disappear from the face of the earth one fine day?

who will realise that i am gone,

who will remember me in their hearts forever...


I am very imaginative.

When traveling on the train, i ask myself who will i leave my last sms to if the train crash. I ask what will i say to the person. I ask as tears swell up in my eyes.

Silly. Stop watching too much drama. Stop being a crybaby.

My tear glands are so active, i feel sad so easily.

Thats not the cheery liwei everyone knows. Who am i?


Who am i living for? Who's shadow am i living in?

Will i get lost? Will i ever fall and not get up?

Rely on urself he said. I knows. But i just cant bear to walk anywhere alone...


I'm scare of collapsing one day somewhere, someday...
in a place where nobody knows who i am.
Who will call to inform my family and friends?
Who will help me preserve my memories?
Who will guide me on my way?
How can i record every word that i want to say to everyone?
How can i tell them?

Someday sometime some moment.

Hold me tight, for i'm scare to live this beautiful world one day.



Oh Crap.
Just live each day as it is.




llwei~

17june2008

心里知道
错了就要道歉

心里知道
不可把一切当理所当然

心里知道
你的委屈

有些事，做了就成事实
有些话，说了就收不回
一时的任性，
伤害了别人，
也伤害了自己。

是我任性吗？

太放纵自己了。
和自己的家人不一样。
原来，
不是以为的那样。
不是。
不是。
不是。

湿湿的
就这么流。

脑子太多东西
乱了
好累
不知该说什么。

静静的。。。



蔚~

03jun2008 我。你。

不知哪一天
才会完完全全
成为你生命
的一部分

能让你
开开心心
告知全天下
情情愿愿
兴兴奋奋
要
把一切都记载

期待那一天
到来
我
耐心等待
小心提醒
迎接更幸福的明天！

谢谢你的努力
好幸福！


蔚~

爱与希望

爱与希望

作词：王雅君 作曲：林俊杰

大地被摇晃著 天空突然黑了
我的心也被震碎了
下一秒瓦解了 泪堆积成了河
但明天是好的 我们要坚定著
爱 让我们不放弃活著
还要继续和大自然拔河
当爱与希望 投射炙热的太阳
昨日泪光 会随时间都蒸发
别轻易放弃 明天要许更多愿望
装满了勇气 就更有力量
当爱与希望 倒映暖暖的月亮
再回头望 又是筑好的家乡
我知道未来还有好多路要闯
我打开了窗 看见了晴朗
作词：王雅君 作曲：林俊杰
当爱与希望 投射炙热的太阳
昨日泪光 会随时间都蒸发
别轻易放弃 明天要许更多愿望
装满了勇气 就更有力量
当爱与希望 倒映暖暖的月亮
再回头望 又是筑好的家乡
我知道未来还有好多路要闯
我打开了窗 看见了晴朗

a song full of meaning...
in a time like this,
feel fortune that you're still living in a world of love
with people who loves you
with people whom you love...

be thankful that you can still hold these people in your arms...
be thankful that you can still see their smiles...
be thankful that you can still treasure them...

is this the way nature works to stop more pain from being inflicted to its land?
the quake has slapped many from all over the world back to reality
it has yet again
reminded us of the fragility of life
reminded us what it meant to love
reminded us of the almightiness of the unknown

had you been the one being trapped,
have you had time to kiss your love ones goodbye?
have you had time to hold your love ones tight?
have you had time to tell your dreams for the future?

the pain of death is what stays with the ones still living.
the suffocating breathe of loneliness, the hollowness of the heart, the heart wrenching moments of memories flooding your mind...

stay strong my friends.
stay strong the children.
stay strong the ones who survive.



llwei~

26april2008 明天不要来

不要那么好
害怕如果失去

不要那么好
害怕那是负担

不要那么好
害怕变依赖

不要那么好
害怕太想念

一个星期
怕宛如一个世纪
好久好久

对不起，
又让你担心了

珍惜你，
所以我会好好的。


蔚

22april2008 一起幸福。

要幸福。
换换自己的观点，立场，
看看处在的情况，
好幸福。

天天的。
我会挂念
我会思念
我会想念

会不会很难过呀？？！


嗯。。。。
我们要一起幸福哦



蔚~

14april2008

hate the exam craze.
hate the mugging.
hate the breathlessness.

stop writing. stop reading.
just look at me.


i should try to be more independent.
i should.
you might get tired one day.
you might.

what will i end up with then?



llwei~

05april2008

craving for 酸酸酸酸酸酸的 bo hua guo...
lazy lazy lazy
tired tired tired
~pukish~



llwei~

04april2008 12.48am

you did not.
hoping doesnt get you anywhere.
dont cross your fingers,
show it with actions.
even an attempt to try makes things better
it becomes more beliveable sometimes.

my phone is flat.
DND.


llwei~

1april2008 thinking...

its hard to understand yourself sometimes.
its hard to comprehend what you want
its hard to comprehend why you want
its hard to comprehend how things or feelings turn out a certain way that it did

sometimes i question myself...
most of the time actually.

can i ignore?
how much uncertainty.
how much trust.
how much expectation.
can i place in myself?

when the stress sets in,
the headache gets more splitting.
the mood gets more heavy.
the expectations higher.
the dissatisfaction greater.

when things are different,
can i adapt? can i afford to lose?

what's wrong with me?!?
i think, i need to,
wake up to the imperfect world.

forgive me for my selfishness.
forgive me for my childishness.
forgive me for my greediness.

i am imperfect.


thinking......wondering.....asking.....
crystal ball crystal ball.
what does the future behold?


llwei~

25mar2008 洋葱

杨宗纬-- 洋葱
作词/作曲:阿信(五月天)

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到
心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己
像是空气
大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我
笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑
最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望
装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒
专属的剧情



llwei~

11mar2008

So many nights, I'd sit by my window,
Waiting for someone to sing me his song.
So many dreams, I kept deep inside me,
Alone in the dark, but now you've come along.

And you light up my life,
You give me hope, to carry on.
You light up my days
And fill my nights with song.

Rollin' at sea, adrift on the water
Could it be finally, I'm turning for home
Finally a chance to say, "Hey, I Love You"
Never again to be all alone.

And you light up my life,
You give me hope, to carry on.
You light up my days
And fill my nights with song.

You light up my life
You give me hope to carry on
You light up my days
And fill my nights with song
It can't be wrong, when it feels so right

you light up my life.
the same song
but a different meaning

something so simple,
yet something so important.

i'll treasure.
every moment .
every song .
every word .


llwei~

06mar2008

Make it Mutual- Olivia
A quiet moment making my footprints on the sand.
A sweet feeling comes surrounding me.
It's delirious.
Now that's a sugar rush.
My heart is beating oh so fast,
And I dun wanna fall too deep but I want to make it last

There's no need to rush.
We can take our time. Let it go the natural way.
We begin as friends?
And who knows what ?
Where this could be taking me

In this nice cool breeze.
Yes I am all at ease.
When I gush.
And this sweet feeling comes to me.
Can't deny, can't lie, can't really face the truth.
And I wonder if you're feeling the same way too

You know what I would like?
I'd like to get to know you more.
Make that mutual.
Boy, you know you wanna know me too

This is how you make me feel.
When you're here, I feel your vibe,
And I hope I don't fall into deep too fast

You're not the type,
Who'll rush into things.
And let it slip away. Yeah,
I like your type.
Caught up in this ride.
It's kinda silly but I'll say

In this nice cool breeze,
Yes I am all at ease.
When I gush.
And this sweet feeling comes to me.
Can't deny, can't lie, can't really face the truth.
And I wonder if you're feeling the same way too


谢谢你
用心的守候和耐心的包容。
可是，
我需要更多的爱！=P

llwei~

02mar2008 无语的言语

甜甜的爱情
苦苦的思念
酸酸的等待
辣辣的激情

淡淡的言语
浓浓的感情
厚厚的爱心
薄薄的距离

无语的言语
思想丰富的眼神
想说的，一切尽在不言中

喜欢那沉沉的安全感
喜欢那暖暖的双手
喜欢那身架真实的陪伴
喜欢那腼碘的告白

每一个微笑都是因为你
每一份开心也是因为你

我们是最熟悉的陌生人
近近的距离
严严的拘谨
不喜欢，但会学着习惯

一份感情，让双方成长
成熟了，懂事了
减少任性， 学会体谅，学会尊重
you made me a better person~

希望这无语的言语
能在很久很久以后
继续的散发出浓浓的爱情的味道

PS i love you
haha


llwei~

27Feb2008 craze.

my gastric's coming back.
even when i'm eating almost regularly.
so i have a twisted face recently.
cos it hurts.
on and off; a few times a day.
pouts.


I have a craving.
today.
tomorrow.
the day after.
everyday.

its a craving hard to satisfy.


PS I Love You.
how hard is it to say that?
I wanna watch it for myself.
looks like a good movie.



llwei~

24feb2008 并不

我有很自私的想法。

爱我要比我爱你多。

想我要比我想你多。

疼我要比我疼你多。

做得到吗？

过分吧？我想也是。

不说并不代表没有想说的。

不做并不代表没有想做的事。

不见并不代表没有想念的时候。

不提并不代表没有想提的话题。


不说，不做，不见，不提
应说，应做，应见，应提

心中的话，只有自己听得到。
我的话。
自己也听不清楚。

我是自私鬼。
需要一千万个的要求，
来保护自己的不小心，不专心和 不放心，
一个都不能少。

时时刻刻，
天天夜夜，
岁岁年年。

林丽蔚，自私鬼！



llwei~

24feb2008 where.

i feel stressed, merely by the thought of submitting my internship application.

i feel the lack of confidence in myself.

i feel the fear rising up.

i feel my breathe stopping.

i feel the headache coming.






sometimes, no, alot of times, i wonder.

why.
coincidentally. accidentally. incidentally.

not around to be the helping hand.
not around to be the happie clown.
not around to be the cosy blanket.

sometimes, no, alot of times, i feel.

touched.
loved.
important.

but, again, not .

what is it now?
sometimes. yes sometimes.
i taste bitterness in the sweetness.
sweet.
Yes,i thought it was, until others reminded me.

unsettled. dangly. misty darkness.


Ms Lim,
breathe.
and makeup your mind.



llwei~

19feb2008

亲爱的那不是爱情
张韶涵


教室里那台风琴叮咚叮咚叮咛
像你告白的声音动作一直很轻
微笑看你送完信转身离开的背影
喜欢你字迹清秀的关心

那温热的牛奶瓶在我手中握紧
有你在的地方我总感觉很窝心
日子像旋转木马在脑海里转不停
出现那些你对我好的场景

你说过牵了手就算约定
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像来不及许愿的流星
再怎么美丽也只能是曾经

太美的承诺因为太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像是精灵住错了森林
那爱情错的很透明



llwei~

14feb2008 哎呀

不知道自己在做什么。
怎样是对，
怎样是错？

这样不该。
找不到帮你的借口。
找不到让自己开心的借口。
让我想了又想。
哎呀。
哀呀。
挨呀。

错了吗？

想太多了吗？

这是一个现实的社会。



llwei~

12Feb2008 gosh.

gosh.
so much to do.
so little time.
i'm dead meat.
what was i doin all this while?

i cant sleep.
i cant sleep.
i cant sleep.

but i'm tired.
lend me your shoulder will ya?

sometimes, i just want to yangou.
just 配合配合，好吗？



llwei~

10feb2008 newyear2008

summary of my 4-day new year for 2008.
had fun on some days.
rotted and stoned for some others.
had a great sense of satisfaction for the things i've done( basically the dishes successfully whipped up).
overwhelmed by guilt for the sinful amt of rubbish delicacy consumed.
sharing these days with frens and family prove to be of great significance when we gather together, giving our precious time to each other, sharing the parts of our life tt they'd missed.

but time passes so quick.
its over.
time to mug.

do you know,
i had a great weekend.
haha.




llwei~

03feb2008 a step further.

i have a brother-in-law now ahah.
yj has finally proposed to sis! ahah
so happie for them.

stepping into the next stage of them life, what future holds for them?
to take the step into committing themselves for the rest of their life, i guess it takes alot of courage.

i've always thought about this issue.
what gives one the courage to decide that they're willing to spend the rest of their life with another person.
spending their rest of their life together will mean
having to look into their face the first thing in the morning
having to look into their face before u face asleep at night
having to face them everywhere u step in the house
having to face them when making any decision be it big or small
having to face them every min, every day.
will it comes a day where they'll run out of topics to talk abt
will it come a day when u get sick and scared of facing that person
will it comes a day when u regret living this life

its quite a scary thing to have another person entirely into ur life and you into his. its hard to predict what will happen in the future. when the sparks and chemistry dies down, what can u do to sustain the relationship? responsibility is one thing, but i think it shouldnt be the element to keep a relationship going. wont that make the relationship a burden then?

when transformed to become a burden, unhappiness follows.
quarrels will get hurting, faith will fade.
promises become liabilities, concerns become unbearable insistent nagging.

when people start to speak in different language of love.
will you be blind enough to not see it.
will you be stupid enough to say hurting words just to vent the anger.
will you be stubborn enough to not yield.
will you be gracious enough to say sorry.
will you be stingy enough to not admit your love.
it all boils down to these;
understand. trust. belief.

how is it that loving someone can be both painful and blissful at the same time?

why is it that even when its painful, people cant make themselves give it up?

how is it that love makes people form these attachment so strong that it gets more painful when you decide to give it up?

why is it hard to let go, when you could be happier without it?

how ready are people to give their love to another?
such that they're willing to accomodate to every part of another's life and habits.
such that they're willing to accept their faults, forgive them and protect them for ever and ever.
such that they'll treasure another's life as much as they treasure their's.



love is such a miraculous thing; for it can produce miracles.
these miracles bring light and happiness into lives.
these miracles touch people's hearts.
these miracles are what people live for.

but love is indeed something weird too.


llwei~

1feb2008 鸡蛋

鸡蛋碰石头

当然是鸡蛋破

一次两次三次

石头还是好好的

鸡蛋却破了

是自讨没趣吧。

谁管它。



feel the headache coming.

i shld just care for myself.




llwei~

27jan2008 Its a S.T.U.P.I.G

its a S,
with a T
then an U
and a P I D.

it spells stupid.

it took her 3attempts before i realised.
not stupid then wat.
but i still continue doing.
even more stupid.
right?


i was PMS-ing in the afternoon.
so many things made me feel stupid.

i dun like to do hopeful cross fingers stuff.
i like to pout and sulk.
by myself. to myself. for myself.

but tt body doesnt know.




llwei~

26jan2008

i'm tired.

went for a run in the morning. though i really hate running, i must say that running gives you a sense of living because you pant till you feel like you're goin to drop dead the next moment. its refreshing thereafter too...feel more energised to play the games.

havnt played for like 1month+ goin on 2 i think. getting rusty..not that i was very good a player anyways haha so i guessed its ok ya. hoohoo.
heard that my and jason are having a competition at 1pm. the kaypoh me decide to head down to support them.

Its held at Tanglin club, called the Jumbo Doubles Tournament. Tanglin club is the only place in sg with jumbo double courts. cool.
The court was indeed more huge then normal, but having 4 person inside seems to be abit crowded. nevertheless, from the players point of view, they claim to feel like an ant inside the court. yeah right.

it was indeed an eyeopener and definitely not a wasted trip down even though the team lost their second game of the day. the players were really experienced and all their shots were awesome. their strokes were all perfect, and not to their mention their drops and placing of the balls to where they intent it to. the navigation of the ball at ease is ..wah. haha i practically cant take my eyes off them and could only say. wAH. damn pro.
experience is definitely something that comes with age. but being a good player doesnt go the same way. With the right attitude and the appropriate gift, one can be a proud winner all the same. Since it was opens, there was a huge discrepancy in age. I see some old granpas takin on sweet young things in their teen. How unfair i thought. but well, to think again, life's never fair.

victory does not come naturally with the skills u have, but all with the right stroke of luck and timing combination.

so who says networking is not important. being effective and efficient is not enough! heehee.

humans are damn hard to please.
they like to take on challenges and live life the hard way.
make themselves worry, unhappy and angry.
only then will they feel the happiness.
why do we always want what we cant get easily?
how stupid.

breathe.
tell me. remind me. make me.



llwei~

25jan2008

block.
blocking.
blocked.

let in some air please.
i need to breathe.


and
get the stuff out of my mind.
it stops me from breathing.


i forget to breathe so many times today.
even now.


there's something wrong with my reflex.ha.

i dun want to do anything.
i just want to lie there
and know that i'm breathing.



llwei~

23jan2008 donkey's 21st.

celebrated donkey's 21st bdae.
went to Aston for dinner. it was cheap but good.
we're getting old.
stepping into the young adults phase. well well.
its quite scary how fast we're moving forward.
without much awareness and preparation.

i hope all of us stay happie, healthy and blessed.
in whatever.

8years and all of us have grown. esp the guys.
in and out of love.in and out of jokes. in and out of each other's minds.
in and out of school.in and out of work.
still we manage to come together every year, to celebrate our friendship.
i cherish, i safekeep.
hoping that the dear feeling will remain within each of us,
even as we step into the next stage of life, of which different destiny awaits.





llwei~

22jan2008

i'm so angry with myself.

muddle head.
why am i always losing track of my things and thoughts.

its so scary to be made to worry.
the moment of realisation for them is even worse.
what were they thinking then.
slow motion?
time freezes, there's not continuation. just snapshots.
the fear within intensifies till it threaten to burst.
did you forget to convey ur love to anyone?
glad that we were first on your mind.


somehow, i feel guilty.
the searing pain.
the discomfort.
the temporal handicap.
i know he feels guilty.
tt explains the insistence to be by her side.
the tendering care.
the simple holding of hands that provides much reassurance.
or maybe thats true love.

pray for things to get better real soon.
hope she's the right girl.

i hope there wont be a next time.

as usual,
you're always the first.
but, what i want to say,
as usual,
never get said.

ask me.
there's never a 'no.' for answer.
only for you.
but not for me.


life's unfair.
i knows.


when i say no.
i'm angry.
at myself.
angry that i come from lala land,
the land of fantasy and fairy tales.
i'm a foreigner, i cant speak your language.


everything's still the same.
oh. i see.




the sister/the friend.~

21jan2008

oh well.
好多时候。
好多地方。
好多事件。
笑吧。
好说了。
想算吧。

没用。
就要扔。


读不懂，没关系。
没心懂，我不哭。


笑一个！=）
我是一个想要把梦实现，而努力成为策划者的梦想家。
someday, i will become the better person.



llwei.

19jan2008 jaychou

went for jay chou concert yesterday. it was quite a disappoinment actually for the show ended damn fast. before i knew it, crazy fans were already screaming for encore and he has come out twice for some of the songs from his older albums. most of the songs sang during the concert are from his new album, and they are all fast rappy songs. I DUN LIKE. bleah. this concert actually gave me a 'impromtu', 'haphazard' kinda feelings as i feel that the content is not really well organised and planned. anws, i think, JAY CHOU is so humble and amiable now. its so different from the cool, indifference impressions he gives previously. his sense of humor is also getting better and so is his emcee technics...can this improvement be attributed to yesterday being his bdae?! haha.


our seats were actually not bad, facing the stage directly. however, my 7mp camera is not very pro and so i could only take photos with puny figures inside. just to mention, there was some creatures worth mentioning seated near us. in our row, there's this gal who brought her teddy to the concert! teddy was so happy to be at the concert that he requested for her to take lotsa photos of him with the stage as background. teddy also got cold during the concert and so missy hugged him tight while taking caution not to squeeze him too hard. i saw her smelling him a few times too. did teddy poo?

the gal behind us, she's an absolute jay chou fan. could sing all the songs without missing any words and such includes the raps. how cool is that.but she wasnt at all high. was glued to the seat. had she stood up to scream n jump, i would have the chance to get high too! bleah.


interesting show. i made many observations.

top in line:
jay chou is super talented.


haha
there are some things i dun understand.
hoping that u can clear my doubts.
can u do it fast??
its not nice to be a confused person.
i dun like it.
haha


one of my fav song of the night is 《彩虹》

all this while, i'd not understood wat the mv meant. now i know...
(view this link. "http://x.discuz.net/421293/viewspace-97771" if interested.)


时间是一种解药，但是时间也却往往是让人陷入陷阱的毒药。

so is time the remedy? or the fatal cause?

sometimes, people do things just because they think its right.
but think again.
who are you to decide whether its right or wrong?

its wrong to make decisions for others.
its wrong to deprive another of the chance to choose.
its wrong to make another suffer for the poor decision u've made.


so please remember that no one is an independent entity from another.
thats nonsense.
you do not do things on your own.
u cannot. so u should not.
share the burden and the happiness.
watever it is.
it will make u a better person.





llwei~

16jan2008 不。

越来越
看不懂。
读不懂。
摸不透。

不愧是大学的程度。

随便啦。
开心就好。
一直都是这样。


llwei~

14012008 rest.relax.

think too much
say too much
ask for too much
will get tired de.

haha.
so izzit dun think, dun say, dun ask better??
i think so!

So,
no more expectations!
i shall be happie like before!


cos i believe that best things gained are always unexpected.

rest and relax. =)
breatheeee.....


i say
congratulations!
focus!
smile!
yeah!



llwei~

14jan2008 drop lae.

i'm bored.

others, by all means, anytime, i analyse.
myself, not objective.
emotions.
fear.
desires.
blinds and chokes.

there's no why dude.
just like that lor.

somethings are hard to express.
somethings are hard to explain.
but that doesnt mean that there's nothing.

feel like grabbing then shake.
hard HaRd HARD.
very hard.
as hard as i can.
hoping for things to drop out.


i hope i can keep to what i've previously decide.
so hard. i think i'll fail to follow. 95% sure.
argh.useless!




llwei~

13jan2008 wrong wrong wrong.

i hate to quarrel with anyone.
i hate to have a cold war with anyone.

i hate it when i have to say fine.
i hate it when i have to leave feelings sore.

sometimes people say the wrong things at the wrong time.
did i?

wrong words. wrong time. wrong place. wrong reaction.
right feelings.

sometimes people say things that are hard to explain.
i'm not the only one.
i say what i see. i feel. i read.
i say what others see. others feel. others read.
or maybe its just me.
so maybe u're right.
maybe there's no need to care.
its just me.


sorry.
sweet dreams.
happie day.



llwei~

11Jan2008

how do we form perception of people?

i guess it depends on different individuals.
we have different values and ideas that allow us to form our own judgment upon people and the right or wrong.
but what i'm sure of is that perception on a person starts on day 1.
after which every word or thing he does,no matter how insignificant, will be taken into account in contributing to the formulation of the person's character, personality to another.
that is why i find observation very important a task.
observe to realise the minute details.
observe to see what others missed in the crowd.


a fren asked me earlier if i think he is a good person.
i smiled but was actually at a loss of words.

very often, we only believe in what we witness for ourselves, and thus the conclusion drawn by ourselves. at least this is what i believe in.

i cant say that i am kind honesty and smart, hoping that you will believe in me and for that image of me to be formed in the eyes and heart of another.
i believe that i have to build upon my actions and sincerity in my everyday life to formulate the image.
only then am i trustworthy and truthful.
and
if you do not believe me, then i'll work harder to make you believe in what i believe in and who i am.

these is what i expect of myself and thus that of others, who cares about how i look at them.

actions definitely speak louder then words.


i did not gave him an answer eventually.
i guess its because its cos i know his weaknesses too well.
he's not a bad person.
just a person with faults.


i think she's pretty. you think not.
i think there's something. you think there's none.
i think i can do it. you think you cant.


how different are we?

do you know?



llwei~

10jan2008 BEAUTY WORLD CHA CHA CHA

i had a great great dream yesterday.

cos i had a great great night.
with good company and of cos
a good production for me to savour even when i reached home!

Presenting to u...BEAUTY WORLD CHA CHA CHA!




not the whole of the cast, but these are the main leads and supporting roles.
i wonder where is my fav frankie.
he's really hilarious with his theme song of the night that screams ooOOoohhh...IIivvyyy...i love you.... placing so much emphasis and care to have the 'hiccups' effect or intermittent pause between every syllabus so that it sounds like 'o o o O O I I Ivy, i love you...'. such is make more entertaining by the group of 'chorus angels' in pink.



irene ang aka wan choo is my next fav cast. her Cantonese lines really spice up the scenes making everyone laugh even if many understand the meaning only after look at the subtitles...shows how natural and talented an actress she is.
well in the show, she practically knows everything but dunnoe any thing.



lulu , one of the character of which the twist of the story lies. a very strong character of which tells of the reality of how tough and unexpected life is; in making a living, how one needs to succumb to circumstances, the lurking of malice and its danger to purity ...
however, she is a awesome representative of many, who is made a victim of circumstances and how one had to hide true emotions as deep dark secrets. they wear a facade mask instead.
anw her name is very catchy.. pronounced as 'loo loo' hahaha.


musicals are really nice to watch. the vocals of the cast left us in awe as they're powerful while being able to deliver emotions. should save up to watch such cultural productions more often. haha.



llwei

08jan2008 i shld.

i need to

1. focus
2. have discipline
3. concentrate on e right stuff

i shld stop dreaming.
i shld mug.
and only mug.



lesson of the day that i find interesting:
Do not marry someone thinking that you can change him/her.

i admit its hard to change someone
no one is comfortable with changes
so do not expect that you can easily change someone.
keep that in mind.


i lift my right hand for the time even when the watch is on my left.
i carry my bag on my left shoulder only.
i have to wear my hairband on my right wrist.
i like to leave the best dishes last to savour.
i like to have soup the last.
i like to drink water before sleeping.
i like to..
i ...

i would hate to change my habits, my lifestyle, my personality.
so how can i expect others to change?

i'm sorry that i tried.

ha
ha
ha


wakie time.
i shld be sleeping early fm now on.




llwei~

范玮琪-- 到不了

你眼睛会笑弯成一条桥
终点却是我永远到不了
感觉你来到是风的呼啸
思念像苦药竟如此难熬
每分每秒
我找不到我到不了
你所谓的将来的美好
我什麽都不要知不知道
若你懂我这一秒
我想看到我在寻找
那所谓的爱情的美好
我紧紧的依靠紧谨守牢
不敢漏掉一丝一毫
愿你看到

7jan2008 ignore me.

1st day of sch. and i'm feeling tired.
feeling sick.
aching.
sore.

so many readings to be done still.


please bless 2008.



yes.no?
i need reasons.
i need explanations.
got. no got.
why. no why?

ignore me.

yes.no?

yes.
try understanding.

i wanna watch
Michael Clayton-- The Truth can be Adjusted



liwei~

03012008

first post of the year.
past is history.
new is future.

新年新希望。
新的期望。
新的期待。
新的期盼。

在新年前夕，看到的一段短短的文字。
它说:

每一天都是生命中的一张白纸，
每一个人，每一件事，
都是一篇生动的文章。

没错。人生就是被生活点滴塑造出来的。
每一个决定，每一个抉择，
都会因某一个人或某一件事，而被影响。
不同的思考程序，不同的生活观念，
都会指引你走向不同的方向。


有些事，过了现在想回味，也没有感觉了。

在2008来临的前几分钟，我在酒店写下了我对2007年的感动。
写的时候很兴奋，想要回新后，就第一时间的把它打进电脑。
现在想，所写的，似乎已没意义了。

我想，时机很重要吧。
做什么事都一样。
那重要的时机过了，感觉就不在了。
当时再快乐的心情，也抵不过此刻的心情。
当时想说的话，不想说了。
当时想做的事，不能时光倒流的再去做。


对2007，我只能说谢谢。
这一年，让我更了解自己。
自己在想什么，
自己想要什么，
自己应该做什么。

这一年，让我更了解自己以外的人。
人的难测之心。
人的口是心非。
人的懦弱。
人的自私。
认识一个人，并不代表你认识他的心。
认识他的心，并不代表你认识他的脑袋。
真正的认识一个人，是需要多少多少的时间呀。
有很多时侯，
你以为是对的事，其实是错的。
所以，不要把自己的思想灌在别人身上。


对2008，我不敢有梦。
梦越多，现实就显得越残酷。

我反省。
我思考。
我勇敢的面对现实。
我可以做的，
我只能改变我自己。

我做的事，都是为了不要有后悔的可能。

我不做的事，也都是为了不要有后悔的可能。

我的坚持，是因为我知道，
对任何事情的后悔，将会成为以后的遗憾。

往前走，应该会看到更迷人的景色吧。


llwei~


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