24feb2008 where.

i feel stressed, merely by the thought of submitting my internship application.

i feel the lack of confidence in myself.

i feel the fear rising up.

i feel my breathe stopping.

i feel the headache coming.






sometimes, no, alot of times, i wonder.

why.
coincidentally. accidentally. incidentally.

not around to be the helping hand.
not around to be the happie clown.
not around to be the cosy blanket.

sometimes, no, alot of times, i feel.

touched.
loved.
important.

but, again, not .

what is it now?
sometimes. yes sometimes.
i taste bitterness in the sweetness.
sweet.
Yes,i thought it was, until others reminded me.

unsettled. dangly. misty darkness.


Ms Lim,
breathe.
and makeup your mind.



llwei~