throw away the watch u have.

i'm tired. i'm in a pissed mode.

hate it when i have to wait for people who are late for meetings. Yes there are things that they need to do; but there are things that I(others who are on time) need to do too.

u're busy, we're busy too.

u're stressed, who else isn't.

crap.get me out of this pissed mode.

llwei~

28Febuary2007 week 9

I'm uber uber tired.

just hope that BGS midterm gets over FAST.nothing gets into my brain when i study. is it becoming RUSTY....?

many pple are officially starting their muggin sessions. i should too ya. admist the mugging it feels good to have someone who cares.

mummy made me bird nest yesterday yum yum.
mummy keep asking me to name my fav dishes so that she can cook them.
i have frens whom i know will always be there for me to help me destress.
gentle reminders by many to SLEEP EARLY. (which is not quite possible now; but at least i know they care *gRINZ* )

cheerios for all for u.esp MUMMY. *muackx* *muackx* *muackx*


llwei~

27Febuary2007 please save her.

shucks. what happened joyce. things are becoming more serious..please please get well soon.

now i've lost all mood to study for BGS. all i think of when i stare at the computer is your numerous blog entries and your face. i just want to search online to know more about your illness. but the more i read about it, the more i feel worried and scared. tears are coming now. shucks.

please get well. can anyone save her.

i'm not a christian but i do hope for God to save her. Bring the real joyce back to our arms to be loved.

llwei~

25Febuary2007 my butt aches

crap my butt is aching....legs too...seriously. thats for forgetting to cool down and walking ard like nobody's biz yesterday. learnt my lesson.

hey you --butt+ leg muscles recover fast ya!

i think i should start mugging soon. yup. mayb can spot cute guy in lib if i stay there more often aha! opps.

cheerios~
MUG
MUG
MUG give me some motivation man.

llwei~

25Febuary2007 nothing but fun

Saturday, started off my day bright and early.

0830am: left hse to head to school first to get my sports shoes
0915am: reached SMU
0950am: reached Yio Chu Kang Tennis&Squash sports hall
1000am: brushed up my rusty squash techniques with help fm yijia
1100am: got sabotaged to PLAY A FRIENDLY MATCH! crap.i lost of cos =)
1200pm: resume training for the day. i cant serve for nuts!
1300pm: wash up and complaint that i'm hungry to everyone and anyone.
1330pm: Finally left YCK. LUNCH finally.
1400pm: reached Newton Circle. YUM YUM.
1510pm: gossip done. time to move on.
1535pm: reached sunshine plaza. collected yijia's poster
1545pm: started raining. stucked at The Cathay. no choice watched
______Ghost Rider there
___(meanwhile, sat at Starbucks with maoyuan to gossip again haha!)
1630pm: movie time. the theatre was FREEZING COLD.
1830pm: got out from the freezer.
___*afterwhich, realised that i seriously stink aha. so went to get new attire
____heeheee. destination: PS and SUNTEC i think i walked pretty fast.

1930pm: still traveling to destination 2 to get my jeans.
2000pm: finally met laura. opps made her waited for 30mins.
2035pm: reached Marina Bay MRT station. but NO ONE THERE!
2100pm: hitch taxi ride fm eric with terrence and laura =P
2130pm: finally more pple arrived. can start EATING. GOODNESS.STARHUBBERS.
______________EAT TALK
_______________________TALK EAT
_________________________________EAT MORE, TALK MORE.
2300pm: almost done for the day. slowly shutting down system.
2330pm: got into car and HOME i go.during journey, complain to mummy abt
______my aching body.
2400am: finally step home.
2450am: blogging....

wow wow wow thats my itinerary for today. packed ya. but had lotsa fun.
FUN LIST #1 played the first fomal squash game today though i lost but i
________managed to win 1 set ok!
_______#2 watched a nice movie
_______#3 impromptu shopping spree
_______#4 watched amazingly beautiful fireworks at marina(unexpected)
_______#5 捞鱼生!!!! cos today is 人日! *身体健康 学业进步 桃花多多*
__________________________*身体健康 学业进步 桃花多多*
__________________________*身体健康 学业进步 桃花多多*
_______#6 met up with hubbers and laura DARLING. FUN FUN FUN and more FUN.

i'm seriously aching all over now. uber wanna post some photos of today! but the photos are not with me! eeeks. shall bug laura to upload them till she cries for help.YAY.

ok gonna sleep.good nites =)

llwei~

22Febuary 2007 time to say bye bye again

its thursday. its 初五. its 22Feb. Its time for bro to go back to Aus again. Crap. din really feel that he hass been back for 3 whole months already. will miss ya lots though all u do is to irritate me and make me scold you =P.
i hope i wont cry cos so 丢脸! everytime i send a family member off..i'll CRY. wahahha i'm not shy to declare. Anws Bro, study hard ok. study really really hard. wont be able to buy u ur bdae cake. mayb i can do other things for ya at that time! =)

I went shopping with mummy @Vivo yesterday. was totally TIRED out AND bought some stuffs too. Mummy's the bestzzzz :"like it, buy it."

i already know what to buy you for Mother's Day. You'll lurve it.

decide to change the theme song. feel for this song. thanx Alyvn!!( though u dont know so much of the lyrics)

每一次 都在徘徊孤单中坚强
每一次 就算很受伤 也不闪泪光
我知道 我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞 飞过绝望
.
.
.
我终于 翱翔 用心凝望不害怕
哪里会有风 就飞多远吧


its only when we are alone do we learn to grow and become resilient..stronger.
somethings have to be faced alone and no help from others can get u out of the mess.
Cry if you must, but must also learn to wipe them dry fast, 飞过绝望 我终于翱翔 用心凝望不害怕 哪里会有风 就飞多远吧

Thats me. =)

you gonna be strong for yourself and continue moving. Stay happie.

llwei~

blessed. Thank you.

photos for 初二 n 三(more of it soon)

went out with PMS today. havnt felt so happie for such a long time. GOSH I LOVE ALL OF THEM TO BITS...we can so talk for hours and hours.crap crap crap and laugh non-stop. cant imagine life without them though we don't meet up often. met our sec sch DISCIPLINE MASTER at marine parade today...he was like 'wow, u guys are still together' OF COURSE mans. we had nv broken up before.

Guys (ernnie, lian, alyvn,jeff, donkey) thanks so much for giving me a sense of security and love. besties for ever and ever and ever ever ever ever...

i'm not being childish ya =)

llwei~

20Febuary 2007 i feel so much.

its already the 3rd day of Chinese New Year. So FAST while the festive mood is slowly dying down, i will have to resume School WORK and projects etc eeks hate it. Just hope tat time can stand still at this moment...

Its a new year.though not a new start. The forecast says that Rabbits have no love this year! shucks but i don't believe aha! i wanna 桃花多多 haha..opps
was telling QX just now that i wanna get a BOYFRIEND. then she asked me to post my criteria up here aha.gosh i dont think so.=) WAIT then. boo hoo~

i enjoyed my new year this year. really enjoyed it. more happening probably because i was more sociable and... aha there are more praises! (for you to guess what praises will make a gal float)heehee.. there are more things that i tried this year..like drinking (not alot), K-ing at cousin hse, trying my best to mingle with the not so 熟 people ( i think i did well la), and last but not least taking LOTSA pictures!! i feel its such good memories to be safekeep.Also gonna meet up with my darling friends( all the different gangs).

yups i think i'm happie.

i do feel a sense of hmmm...emptiness at times but i guess the festive mood and my family/friends-warmth can make it up ya! had fun fun fun conversations with many people this few days and slept really really late. i guess i wanna enjoy myself throughly 吧.

yups i think i'm happie.

i think i've really grown up such that my expectations of things had became different with the focus changed.我不是小妹妹了ok!

yups i think i'm happie with who i am now.


llwei~

18Febuary2007 today was great...

well well, din post any pics of yesterady so i'll post all of it today! my 除夕and 年初一photos...had fun today as well and recieved so many surprises! the baby is a new born..so cute ya but she cried when i tried carrying her haha ...opps sorry baby i have no training b4 hee~

lead me once again to lament how fast time is passing...by the same time next year, the baby will be crawling and my another cutie boy boy cousin wld be in K1 and be also as tall as me? JOKE! but he's really tall for a preschooler ...can talk really well too...hesays :'' i have my picture on the board in my school.'' ?
''wahhh how come?"
'' i gt FIRST'' *grinz*
he lines up last in the line too...cos he's the tallest heehee

wat to say...JUST CUTE LORS.

enjoy the pictures..more to come soon...

18Febuary2007 one of the happiest CNY

不知道从几何时， 感情淡了，遇到的时候也都是勉强的在寒暄。
今年的新年，我想不一样了。我真心的觉得， 我们是真心关心彼此的。

虽然新年喜庆的气氛不这么样，但希望会是好久已来，最开心快乐的！

Anws posted a uber nice and meaning song so that while u read you get to enjoy this beautiful song. I particularly love this part of the lyrics.

爱要耐心等待 仔细寻找 感觉很重要
宁可空白了手 等候一次 真心的拥抱
我相信在(这个)世界上 一定会遇到
对的人出现(在眼角)

How true this is…hope this give solace to all of you. Let’s 加油together!

llwei~

17Febuary2007 we laugh together and we cry together

its in the middle of the night..every1's asleep. as to why i am not sleeping at this wee hour, haha i was trying to be 'creative'. wanna see if i have the designer hands to transform unwanted thingy into useful usables! heehee i CUT UP my unwanted jeans and tried to make it into a demin skirt wahaha looks kinda ugly now. limited resources ya see wat i can do magic with it later when i'm more sane =) the rest mayb i can make into pencil case! heehee~

listening to some old songs now...really nice 周蕙 is a good singer..i'm gonna puck the earpiece into my ears and let them ferry me to my dreams.... all this lovevy sad songs ar..recommended by qiaoxiang, make me feel so sad everytime i listen to them ... esp at this time of the day, vulnerable ok. nah but i still wanna listen to them.

sometimes, gals just need to feel the emotional side of themselves.
to know that some things are real
to hope some things are real

well since some things are not within our control, and 'feeling/ relishing' the emotions are not what we can (sometimes la cos if u have a strong will, u can choose not to think which of cos is hard) or want to ignore ... just let us sympathise with ourselves once in a while.

its tiring to carry the strong front all the time

llwei~

14Febuary 2007 its Vday morning

Woke up early in the morning @ 730 (oh not very early ya...but i slept late yesterday so relatively its still early)... feeling uber tired. why? cos i cant fall asleep yesterday night though i was not very not tired ha! sighs~

hope this day will perk me up.

i wanna SPEND. hope i find things worthwhile enough to buy !

Every year i had secretly hope this day will pass by real fast haha! Opps....

need to get myself out of the sianed mode (i bear the heavy responsibility of getting ernnie out of the same mode too~) i have been feeling the past few days or weeks? ha i'm not sure... so i'm gonna take PHOTOS, pictures, Graphics hahah watever u call them.

LV GUCCI LV GUCCI LV GUCCI LV GUCCI LV GUCCI PRADA PRADA PRADA PRADA PRADA PRADA PRADA PRADA PRADA COACHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

make this sound like a tribal chant its quite fun actually too bad we din amazed the class with this majestic ritual chant.. too bad for u guys hoohoo~ just a tip, u must say this out with a deep sexy voice and rhythm ish very very uber important =)

thats all for part 1 of today, follow up for part 2 in the night

oh ya still need to finish up Analytical Skill hw for later.
yucks. i cant analysis.i dun have the skill. it just make me see how Amazingly Stupid i am ha!

llwei~

photosssss~~

13Febuary2007 wat makes me happy

I'm in my TWC (Technology World Change) class now...so BORED and tired hahaha the class has just started for like barely 22 minutes....and i feel like sleeping must be the gymming but i enjoyed the process so.... i think its OK!

trying to think of TOP 10 reason to go to the gym here goes...:

1. it makes you fit fit fit
2. it makes you feel GOOD
3. it makes others think that you're GOOD
4. i helps many relac or destress ( its true, it divert your attention away fm the many things u have to do...just sweat it out~)
5. it allow for BONDING with your gymmin mate =)
6. it occupies time when u're bored
7. u get to see hunky guys or sporty tan gals!!
8. it sheds your FATSssss wobby wobby ones... eeeks
9. it makes you HAPPY knowing that you can eat sinful stuff while not growing horizontally
10. of cos lastly it makes you HEALTHY ( as in really healthy and not your subconscious deluding you )

see how advantageous it is for you to go gym? it is a important part to make your life complete ya! so if u have not realise that till now, its time you do =) its easy and simple!

anws i was real real happy yesterday. Happy though tired hahha ...i'm always tired ya but that dont mean that i'm LAZY (pple who go to the gym are not lazy). The reason for my happiness...actually UNKNOWN. serious.... yesterday was my last CT class and all groups have their presentation. though many many are of really lame content but its super funny and entertaining.. that sets me thinking and reached the conclusion--there is a solid relation b/w creativity and lameness. why?

i think thats bcos, creativity is making nothing out of something or making something out of nothing.... i particularly love the brillant idea of hiding a can of beer in the turban HAHA. comes in useful at times when u really feel like having a drink ya! so i guess i have to admit that our grp is nOT CREATIVE... well well..

anws i feel that yesterday was the first time i feel that our CT class is well BONDED... usually we just talk to selected people we know and stuff but yesterday we all had FUN...smiled to many pple that i've never tok to before and even exchange a few words... thats something though not very significant but makes quite a difference to brighten up your day. It feels good for me. we had fun tearing notes and 10 yr series during one of the grp's presentation too, packed in the tiny teeny weeny GSR all of us were so called 'liberated' we laughed and joke and were totally not ourselves =)

what made me happier was of cos the most important activity of PHOTO TAKING! we had spent so so so so much time and effort on the project... and decorating the classroom for our presentation wasnt really an easy task too~ after the class though we dread clearing the humongous task that await us, we created fun out of the labour. haha all of us transformed into MODELS and took so many photos with 'ourselves' (our life size posters wahahaha) we POSED, we ACTED, we went crazy inside the room. took UBER many photos such that yola cant send them to me over the mail u guys shall wait for me to get them after CLASS wahaha i'll post the SUPERMODEL pictures for you to see yEY....


hope my mood stay good and not let emo come over me again.... friends are good remedy for me though! counting down to new year and the days ahead filled with fun and jOY~

llwei~

10 fEb 07 mummies are the most creative!

i always think that i encounter many interesting things ard me...everywhere i go hahhas. when i share these stories that i see, some of my frens will think that 'how come u always meet with such funny/ interesting stuff!! '... well~ mayb because i really look at things ard me, people and their facial expressions, behaviours, actions...and i keep my ears open too... hahha mayb u can call that eavesdropping... but u know sometimes its not like we intentionally go and hear what they are saying but its like they're talking reallyyyyy loud so well well...hahhaa cant blame the audience for watching...heee!

anws looking at the title for this entry obviously it concerns mummies and this is what i met with today on my way to school which made me smile and acknowledge mums to be the most creative and wonderful parent in the world....

throughout my bus journey there was this family all packed on 2 seats ( parents and 2 kid). i was backfacing them and so wasnt really sure what they were doing...despite my rather loud music, i can still here the laughter of the 2 kids and the communication b/w the parents with their kids. at first i was rather pissed off for they were really LOUD and the kid was screeching and laughing at the same time thus filling the whole bus with their noise... eeeks. hahha anws the screeching gt louder as u know abt kids...once they start their play, they are always unwilling to stop esp when she's having fun...so she was still screaming at the top of her voice and the parents (i think) notice that it is disturbing others for i saw pple ard me turn towards them to give them a 'ahem' kinda look =P

know what the mum did? haha she started singing to the kid.
'' if you are happy and you know you clap your hands....*clap clap*....."
'' if you are happy and you know you clap your hands....*clap clap*...."
" if you are happy and you know it, and you really want to show it, if you are happy and you know you clap your hands *clapclap*

" if you are happy and you know you pull your ears.... *pull pull*..." repeat....

then she when on and on comming up with many new actions for the songs of which i've never heard before....''stick your tongue" "kick your feeet" ''rub your eyes'' etcs hahahaa it was rather amusing but indeed she manage to soothe the kid down and lead her to sway along with her.. the most admirable part was of cos that she was not afraid to sing it out loud...though i guess she did not meant to sing it to the whole bus (although she was unintentionally not very soft). she dun have a great singing voice nor does she has great rhythm but she made me smile...it was a warm kinda feeling...can feel her love for her kid...just like when we are small we use to sing these songs during nursery or kindergarden...it was FUN and it was a time when i had really felt carefree i guess.... nice time that was~....

anws ha getting back to my main point. at that instant, i felt that she was the best mummy in the world hahah so creative... coming out with her own lyrics and entertaining her kid just like they are in their own world..having fun....oblivious to the rest of the world.

come to think of it i think my mum is creative too. always trying to imitate dishes we ate have when we eat out and doin it in her own way substituting ingredients with another, adding new sauces and stuff... then i think she ish one of the best mummy in the world too *grinz*

llwEi~

09 Feb 07 my first official post

my first official post ahem~
feeling really tired now. perhaps its the gymming just now or perhaps its just the denial to study for statistic test tommorz. hais . have this feeling of dread inside me... its so contradictory kinda feeling...its like 'i have studied stats before so i shld be able to handle it" but on the other hand, its also like ' i think there are some things i dont know, must study' haiyo! anws forget that for now rest first =) cos there's still enough time to study for it later or tommorz yippie~

now, the first official post must be a good one ya....where i share my most most most inner feelings rites aha! so here goes some of my thoughts this few days...

have been hearing and thus thinking about relationship problems recently. tears are weeped over broken relationships, minds troubled over how and why things din work out.what is it about relationship anws? i've been asking myself these qns-s...
when u go into a relationship, what exactly are u looking for? companionship? or izzit the someone to spend the rest of your life with? if thats the case should the someone be one who is smart ( so that u know that ur future with him will have no fears of being poor) or have chemistry ( isnt that what loving someone is?) or is really of nice character and treats u really well ( blessed with someone who will take gd care and love u more then u love him) ...?
gals are seriously greedy creatures i guess...the bestest of all is of course to have all of this factors in ' THE MAN' however, what are the chances of that! so if you were to choose, which factors would you consider when considering a guy? gals gals ans me soon ya =)

i have this fren who has been in a 4 yr relationship with her bf. but being fm a traditional chinese thinking family, the family of the guy do not approve of her because of various reasons. despite that, the lovebirds still held on and till now are still madly in love with each other. my question to her is of course; ' do you think u will have a future with him?' since the family will definitely posed as a big problem in the later days what more my fren will have to live with her in-laws. she simply answered; ' actually, we're not thinking abt marriage yet.. its too complicated a thing that needs so much thought.' she is aware of the future and is unsure. so what is pushing her forward in this relationship? --> companionship of her bf of which she immersely enjoys...

i shldnt be saying that they shld give their relation serious thought but frankly speaking, y waste your time when u know that the future is bleak? i guess i am the realistic one. are you? hopes that she will have an happy ending my friend. or make a decision soon.... a heartbroken heart is one too many to heal...

llwEi~

my bloggg ish BACK~

Gosh, went back to my previous blog and realised that the last post was actually 2 years ago.... thats like so long time ago when i was in JC i guess where this craze for online blog was ranging =) but being me, it was only a 3-min kinda thing ha found it a hassle and the 'FEEL' so important to have had sorta faded off so well, i stopped.... now that the feeling and urge to write down emotions and thoughts i have is back, i guess i'll start this blog again! hopefullyyyy (cross fingers) i'll be able to maintain it for a slightly longer period of days hahahhaha ... ok this is a 'testing ' post.. will post again real soonnnnn!