27Feb2008 craze.

my gastric's coming back.
even when i'm eating almost regularly.
so i have a twisted face recently.
cos it hurts.
on and off; a few times a day.
pouts.


I have a craving.
today.
tomorrow.
the day after.
everyday.

its a craving hard to satisfy.


PS I Love You.
how hard is it to say that?
I wanna watch it for myself.
looks like a good movie.



llwei~

24feb2008 并不

我有很自私的想法。

爱我要比我爱你多。

想我要比我想你多。

疼我要比我疼你多。

做得到吗？

过分吧？我想也是。

不说并不代表没有想说的。

不做并不代表没有想做的事。

不见并不代表没有想念的时候。

不提并不代表没有想提的话题。


不说，不做，不见，不提
应说，应做，应见，应提

心中的话，只有自己听得到。
我的话。
自己也听不清楚。

我是自私鬼。
需要一千万个的要求，
来保护自己的不小心，不专心和 不放心，
一个都不能少。

时时刻刻，
天天夜夜，
岁岁年年。

林丽蔚，自私鬼！



llwei~

24feb2008 where.

i feel stressed, merely by the thought of submitting my internship application.

i feel the lack of confidence in myself.

i feel the fear rising up.

i feel my breathe stopping.

i feel the headache coming.






sometimes, no, alot of times, i wonder.

why.
coincidentally. accidentally. incidentally.

not around to be the helping hand.
not around to be the happie clown.
not around to be the cosy blanket.

sometimes, no, alot of times, i feel.

touched.
loved.
important.

but, again, not .

what is it now?
sometimes. yes sometimes.
i taste bitterness in the sweetness.
sweet.
Yes,i thought it was, until others reminded me.

unsettled. dangly. misty darkness.


Ms Lim,
breathe.
and makeup your mind.



llwei~

19feb2008

亲爱的那不是爱情
张韶涵


教室里那台风琴叮咚叮咚叮咛
像你告白的声音动作一直很轻
微笑看你送完信转身离开的背影
喜欢你字迹清秀的关心

那温热的牛奶瓶在我手中握紧
有你在的地方我总感觉很窝心
日子像旋转木马在脑海里转不停
出现那些你对我好的场景

你说过牵了手就算约定
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像来不及许愿的流星
再怎么美丽也只能是曾经

太美的承诺因为太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像是精灵住错了森林
那爱情错的很透明



llwei~

14feb2008 哎呀

不知道自己在做什么。
怎样是对，
怎样是错？

这样不该。
找不到帮你的借口。
找不到让自己开心的借口。
让我想了又想。
哎呀。
哀呀。
挨呀。

错了吗？

想太多了吗？

这是一个现实的社会。



llwei~

12Feb2008 gosh.

gosh.
so much to do.
so little time.
i'm dead meat.
what was i doin all this while?

i cant sleep.
i cant sleep.
i cant sleep.

but i'm tired.
lend me your shoulder will ya?

sometimes, i just want to yangou.
just 配合配合，好吗？



llwei~

10feb2008 newyear2008

summary of my 4-day new year for 2008.
had fun on some days.
rotted and stoned for some others.
had a great sense of satisfaction for the things i've done( basically the dishes successfully whipped up).
overwhelmed by guilt for the sinful amt of rubbish delicacy consumed.
sharing these days with frens and family prove to be of great significance when we gather together, giving our precious time to each other, sharing the parts of our life tt they'd missed.

but time passes so quick.
its over.
time to mug.

do you know,
i had a great weekend.
haha.




llwei~

03feb2008 a step further.

i have a brother-in-law now ahah.
yj has finally proposed to sis! ahah
so happie for them.

stepping into the next stage of them life, what future holds for them?
to take the step into committing themselves for the rest of their life, i guess it takes alot of courage.

i've always thought about this issue.
what gives one the courage to decide that they're willing to spend the rest of their life with another person.
spending their rest of their life together will mean
having to look into their face the first thing in the morning
having to look into their face before u face asleep at night
having to face them everywhere u step in the house
having to face them when making any decision be it big or small
having to face them every min, every day.
will it comes a day where they'll run out of topics to talk abt
will it come a day when u get sick and scared of facing that person
will it comes a day when u regret living this life

its quite a scary thing to have another person entirely into ur life and you into his. its hard to predict what will happen in the future. when the sparks and chemistry dies down, what can u do to sustain the relationship? responsibility is one thing, but i think it shouldnt be the element to keep a relationship going. wont that make the relationship a burden then?

when transformed to become a burden, unhappiness follows.
quarrels will get hurting, faith will fade.
promises become liabilities, concerns become unbearable insistent nagging.

when people start to speak in different language of love.
will you be blind enough to not see it.
will you be stupid enough to say hurting words just to vent the anger.
will you be stubborn enough to not yield.
will you be gracious enough to say sorry.
will you be stingy enough to not admit your love.
it all boils down to these;
understand. trust. belief.

how is it that loving someone can be both painful and blissful at the same time?

why is it that even when its painful, people cant make themselves give it up?

how is it that love makes people form these attachment so strong that it gets more painful when you decide to give it up?

why is it hard to let go, when you could be happier without it?

how ready are people to give their love to another?
such that they're willing to accomodate to every part of another's life and habits.
such that they're willing to accept their faults, forgive them and protect them for ever and ever.
such that they'll treasure another's life as much as they treasure their's.



love is such a miraculous thing; for it can produce miracles.
these miracles bring light and happiness into lives.
these miracles touch people's hearts.
these miracles are what people live for.

but love is indeed something weird too.


llwei~

1feb2008 鸡蛋

鸡蛋碰石头

当然是鸡蛋破

一次两次三次

石头还是好好的

鸡蛋却破了

是自讨没趣吧。

谁管它。



feel the headache coming.

i shld just care for myself.




llwei~