sense my happiness in the photos?
indeed i was enjoying myself last night..with my best frens.
caught Game Plan at cine, after which we went chilling at Starbucks coffee.
it was great catching up and doin lame shit.
little did i know that my childhood fren was going thru a difficult period for the whole of last night...lala's granny passed away this mornin at 6am.
i wasnt there with her physically and emotionally. great.
i cried when i heard the news.
life.
vulnerable.
hell lots of thoughts are rushing through me at this instant.
night. darkness. helplessness. struggles.
its heart-wrenching. its mind draining.
selfishness.
do you silently pray for her to let go of her last breathe.
or do you pray for her to hold on.
loss.
no longer in your life.
but her presence is everywhere. the memories.
her voice, her touch, her eyes.
i last saw her a few weeks ago.
i first saw her 13 years ago.
not just a fren's granny. she's someone more then that.
sometimes. i really really hate life.
unknown.
Unpredictable.
in the hands of WHO?
whats with 'Fate and destiny'
is that the only excuse that we can come up with for the inability to overcome these elements of life?
i cant deal with the element of death.
the devastation of loss is more overwhelming to me then any other things.
i love to keep everyone in my life. each and everyone of you out there.
you form a inseperable part of my memory.
say i'm childish.
say i need to have more experience in living life.
i'll say, irregardless of how old i am, i'll still feel the same way.
don't forget to say i love you.
to all those ard u.
me and lala were @ 2 different worlds yesterday.
so that is life?
how many other persons were in a similar world as her yesterday?
i'm a selfish ignorant gal living in my own small world.
cos i only remember these people's grief at a time like this.
llwei~
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