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what i had been most scared of has finally happened. we broke off.

i cried. but not too much..cos i've been crying so much for the past week. my tears has run dry.

i'm glad there at least there will be some people who are happie...his mum will regain back her smile, their relationship salvaged...his family regain its peacefulness... at least he wont be the sinner of his family...even if i'm not the happie one, its still worth it rites.

i know i've been very selfish, to make him go through all this misery for the past week. but deep down inside, i really loved him. i really wish that there was anything i can do to relieve his pressure and pain. every time u reach home, i worry what u may tell me later. i hoped that u dun return home to face troubles everyday but reality is seldom to what i hope for. ur family is still the most impt one eventually....


i may sound so noble now, but deep down inside my heart is tearing...i fully understand where ur parents' concern is coming from...i do not blame you. i'd thought we could last longer then this...i really treasure every min and sec we have together....


but i am a victim too. just that irregardless of that i'm still not in any position to negotiate or talk any terms.all i can do is to apologise for being sick...if i had the choice, i would not want to have this illness...if i had the choice, i would want to be the healthy princess to be taken care off by u forever...if i had the choice, .....i would still want to have u in my life...

all this are just ifs....in life there's no 'ifs' for u to talk abt....


while listening to this song, i teared again.

you said everything happens for a reason. and i choose to believe it. If God wants it this way, then there's no way we can go against it rites.

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control




ur princess for the last time,

llwei~