Had an interesting MA meeing yesterday. due to HIGH LEVEL of SHITTY FEELING CALLED DEP-stRESSED, the group(actually just me and qx)went highhhhhhhhh.just laughin but dunnnoe wat we're laughin at. doing weird things. serious at one moment, giggling at the immediate next.
i cant sleep.
i close my eyes.but brain, why are you still thinking about something?
maybe its the radio. so i switched it off. pulled the blanket over me. Complete silence.
i tell myself to relax.i psycho myself to sleep.i coax myself to sleep. i threaten myself to sleep.
i open my eyes. first feeling is SHIT. why did i wake up so early in the middle of the night?! now i cant get back to sleep.
my brain feels tired. so does my eyes.
a feeling of helplessness...a pentup feeling, i feel frustrated!
i want to do something. i know deadlines are drawing near. but WHY IS THERE NOTHING FOR ME TO DO YET?
i should be more productive during meetings, steer the way, clear the vision and mayb we will be able to start on the report.
the feeling is terrible.DEP-stRESSED. depressed and stressed. how good can the combination get. midterms also coming up next week and the week after.
so interesting. the workload is piling up, but i still have so much time on my hands staring at them but not actually clearing them.
crap. i think this sleeping-yet-not really sleeping nights will go on for quite some time. SAVE me!
BOOS
llwei~
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