28oct2007 true or false

getting busy, but i'm actually loving it.
Marketing is so fun ( when u have actually found the solution to stuff). Hope i can do well enough to get my marketing major! i wanaa take more marketing modules next term!~ xiang jie, heard that? hohooo...

feels like watching a movie and i am the lead actress.

i truly believe that at times of vulnerability, memories comes back easily to you, like it or not.
Some nights, i remember them both, and i reminisce the memories...
how vivid they are...i think about how they're doing now and why they'd chosen me in the first place...no answers to the latter but to the first, they're doin well i guess...

I always ponder, am i leaving in the past like this? if i am, then are they?
to forget and to remember, which one is easier to achieve.?
its hard to forget and have nothing to fall back on, memories are what is embedded in our minds automatically, there's no mechanism to stop it... what magical eraser should i use before i can clean them off?
to remember its painful.. i still remember their touch, the snapshots and the way their eyes talks to me...it is wonderful memories, just no more true... are memories what that make people stagnant and resistant to moving forward?

i think i'm moving on...because what has happened has gradually dull and paled to me and to the people around me. the crux of this sentence is I THINK.

It seemed like they're forgeting the matter.... no more mentioning of the name, no more conversations on it. thats suppose to be something good. But sometimes,why do i yearn to hear his name and to learn of his well-being.

a thin differentiating line between true feelings and imposed feelings.
when the need to imposed 'a feeling' is demanding because everyone is watching you, you have to do it. and gradually, it covers your real feelings.
you were fine, so you cant be un-fine now.
if u said u are moving forward, u cant be moving backward or remaining stationary at the same time. its a time relative kinda idea. i THINK.

i appear non-chalant... so is that my true feeling, or am i trying to be?

life is so complicating.
sometimes, people could do things in such subtle n convincing ways that even they themselves gets confused.

true or false?

appluase for the best actress
applause for the best documentary

which one?


llwei~