07122007

dunnoe what i want.

meet the old.
i wanna care just like before.
but gaze cant hold for long.
** looks away.

heard of the old.
a sense of envy. how fast.
wonder if i was in any position to feel what i had felt in the first place.
perhaps i was the hinderance. not ***.

look at the new.
counting.
how true? i cant be sure.

i cant feel **** words.

i cant commit. i hate the obligation. there isnt any.

quiet.different.

nice. full of virtues. but i'm a realist...
age.
prospect.
chemistry.
communication.

words of advice. dilute my thoughts.
rich. poor. who.
appreciated. wanted. deserted.
hoping. waiting. disappointment.
happy. intriguing. pressuring.
when. where. what. how.


i try to live everyday happily.
i smile.
but i think too.
cant find answers for myself. so i choose the easier route of escaping.

i have excuses. hmmm...no, they're valid reasons.

Huh. i dun get it.



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